Saturday, November 13, 2010

Slow Saturday

Today was perfect.  The weather was warm and we had a date to visit with some friends in the "country" who we haven't seen in way too long.  We met at their house for lunch and it was delightful.  Warm air, embellished grilled cheese sandwiches, mimosas, chicken chasing, and good conversation made up our afternoon.  I had filled the crock pot with butternut squash apple soup before we left so the afternoon was dinner prep stress free.  On our way back to the "city" we stopped at Cookie Love and treated ourselves to a late afternoon snack.  We came home and enjoyed some family Rock Band time and devoured the soup with some crackers and good cheese.  It was nice to step away from the usual chore filled Saturday and enjoy some time with good friends.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

I'm here. I'm really here.

I started this blog in 2001 and at one point it was my lifeline.  I felt alone as a mother for the longest time.  This blog helped me through my years of being a working mother and a stay at home mother.  Last year after being home full time for 4 years I went back to work full time and it all became too much.  Between being a mom, working full time outside of the home and running my own indie craft business I just couldn't keep up.  Before Facebook and all the other social media sites this blog was my lifeline to the outside world.  Facebook changed all that and blogging took a back seat.  I want to change that.  I am attempting to enter back into the blogging world.  I hope you will come back and join me for the ride.

Sicilian Orange and Fennel Salad

This recipe comes from one of my new favorite cookbooks called Sicilian Feasts. I have always been in love with Sicilian culture since it is where my mother's family is from. I received this cookbook last year as a gift and it has quickly become one of my favorites. What I love about Sicilian cooking is that it is simple and flavorful. I made this dish for the first time tonight and it made my taste buds jump for joy. The entire family loved it.


2 oranges
1 fennel bulb
2 tablespoons extra-virgin olive oil
1 tablespoon lemon juice


Peel the oranges, and cut them into a bowl in chunks. Remove the feathery leaves from the fennel bulb and reserve for soup. Cut the fennel bulb into quarters and slice thinly through the core so that the bulb remains attached. Sprinkle with salt and pepper and mix well. Drizzle with olive oil and mix again. Add the lemon juice and mix for the last time before transferring to a serving platter.


Saturday, March 13, 2010

germs, guilt, work

Being sick sucks. Missing work sucks even more. One of the best things about my 4 years as a stay at home mom was not having to worry about call out of work when they kids got sick, I got sick, or for the numerous vacations and days off from their school. Now that I am back to work full time I am remembering this dreaded, awful part about working. Perception. Perception at any job is key. Regardless of how open companies claim to be they still live by the old perception rule. I am lucky that my husband and I both have jobs that can easily be done from home. This makes it better because we can take turns taking "work from home days" when kid illnesses or days off come up. Sometimes though they hit all at once and the timing doesn't work so well. Take this past week for instance. My littlest was way too sick to go to preschool, but my husband couldn't get out of some meetings he had so I worked from home for two days. By the end of the week though I had picked up on the germs and found myself going into the office on Friday (something I used to swear I would never do when I was sick) all because of perception. Because I had been out of the office (even though I was working from home) for two days I felt like I had to suck it up. Suck it up I couldn't, so they sent me home.

It is so difficult being a working parent. I love my job and I love working, but this full time both parents out of the house situation is very difficult. So here I sit, or rather lay - in my bed on a Saturday afternoon. A bowl of acorn squash soup by my bed, computer snug up with me in bed, trying to heal. I already missed out on my husband's birthday which was last night, had to cancel tonight's birthday plans, and will most likely be in bed early again tonight. I feel so guilty. Why? I got sick. I didn't mean to. I certainly would never plan this, but as mothers I think guilt just lives inside of us like a parasite that has leached on to our souls.

Friday, January 22, 2010

hello again

Where have I been?
Where have I gone?
I've been changing
and growing
and living
and learning
Crying and sighing
stressing and doing.

My life has changed
so much
in the past few months
I wouldn't even know where to start.

I thought about
staying away.
I thought about
but then I decided
to try.

This isn't the first
time I have gone through
a transformation.
A girl
became a mom.
A mom became
an employee.

I am a wife, a mother, a sister, a daughter, a friend.
I work full time now while trying to keep my life at home in order.
I have put my creative endeavors on the back burner for now.
I am trying to work it all into an already over booked day.

I struggle
I cry
I succeed
I fail.

But I keep trying.

This blog has seen me through many changes in my life.
I need it again.